angel AND devil

2009-07-23T11:14:00.001+08:00

Interesting quotes from Jasmine's blog:

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep, wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'

true or not?!?

21st Birthday Celebration Confirmed

2009-04-07T19:36:00.002+08:00

Once in a lifetime,
do you turn 21 never again,
will this age be seen...
I'm inviting you to help make mine
an event to look back at in time...
Please join me at my 21st Birthday Party
on 18 April 2009 (Sat) at 5pm...

birthday wishlist (to be continued...)

2009-02-20T10:42:00.023+08:00

PENELOPE SIGNATURE WRISTLET (Sliver/Khaki/Mahogany OR Sliver/Khaki/Magenta)

iPod nano-chromatic (Red or Black) - (taken by Mel)

everything anything from agnes'b

coach wristlet - amanda satin capacity wristlet

olympus digital camera - µ 1040 (taken by zhenxiang & friends)

samsung f480

samsung omnia

dkny green apple - (taken by YipSin)

salvatore ferragamo - incanto perfume (shine)

salvatore ferragamo - incanto perfume (charms)

Fall For You

2009-02-09T15:26:00.002+08:00

Fall For You

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I’d never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh
But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
'Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

i hate it

2009-01-31T00:24:00.001+08:00

DEPRESSED
i guess i haven't get over... ... ...

i hate it.

L.I.F.E

2008-12-01T15:01:00.002+08:00

life is short.
life is unpredictable.
cherish it before you lose it.

Malik
my dear friend,

you will always be remembered.
we love you.

rest in peace.

1 min of slience~

说好的幸福呢

2008-11-21T20:46:00.003+08:00

说好的幸福呢

你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

YOU R THE FUCKED UP ONE..

2008-11-14T15:39:00.002+08:00

PLEASE DON'T EXPECT ALL YOUR DESIGNERS TO READ YOUR FUCKED UP MIND...
SAYING PEOPLE DESIGN IS FUCKED UP..
BUT, YOU DID'NT EVEN SAY WHERE WRONG WHERE NOT GOOD WHERE YOU DON'T LIKE..
UNTIL... ...
SOMEONE CALLED YOU THEN YOU SAY THIS CANOT THIS NOT GOOD...

WHAT THE FUCK YOU WANT..

WHO ARE YOU TO SAY MY DESIGN FUCKED UP!
(worse is..is your favourite designer show me that and ask mi to follow that design..)

FUCKED OFF!

xiao xiang look-a-like (DUMBO)

2008-11-12T14:59:00.007+08:00

new love..DUMBO!!!

families n cousins should know i got this "elephant" now becoming "rat" soft toy tts with me for 20yrs mayb..hahaha..my beloved xiao xiang..

NOW! u all look at DUMBO..the colours r exactly the same as my xiao xiang u noe..HAHA!(=

cancelled

2008-11-11T19:35:00.006+08:00

Just to inform all my fellow frens out there..i've oreadi deleted my friendster account..due to some personal reasons..hopefully things wil get better without friendster..wish me luck!

BUY ME THIS!!!

2008-11-04T17:40:00.006+08:00

HTC Diamond Touch OR Samsung Omnia?!
Olympus Compact Digital Camera µ 1040!!!

save sAvE SAVE!!!
money mOnEy MONEY!!!
come cOmE COME!!!

Ohhhhhh please~
who will get me this mobile phone or digital camera on my 21st birthday?

hate my life

2008-10-21T22:46:00.001+08:00

LIFE SUCKS BIG TIME~!

Back At One

2008-09-02T23:10:00.001+08:00

"Back At One"

It's undeniable... that we should be together...
It's unbelievable how I used to say that I'd fall never
The basis you need to know, if you don't know just how I feel,
Then let me show you now that I'm for real...
If all things in time, time will reveal...
Yeah...

One... you're like a dream come true...
Two... just wanna be with you...
Three... girl it's plain to see... that your the only one for me...
Four... repeat steps one through three...
Five... make you fall in love with me...
If ever I believe my work is done... then I start Back at One (yeah)

So Incredible... the way things work themselves out...
And all emotional, once you know what it's all about babe...
And undesirable... for us to be apart...
Never would of made it very far...
Cause you know you've got the keys to my heart
Cause...

One... you're like a dream come true
Two... just wanna be with you
Three... girl it's plain to see... that your the only one for me
Four.. .repeat steps one through three
Five... make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done... then I start Back at One......

Say farewell to the dark of night...
I see the coming of the sun...I feel like a little child...
whose life has just begun...
You came and breathed new life
Into this lonely heart of mine...
You threw out the life line... just in the Nick of Time

One... you're like a dream come true
Two... just wanna be with you
Three... girl it's plain to see... that your the only one for me... girl and...
Four... repeat steps one through three
Five... make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done... then I start Back at One.

Convocation Day..16th August 2008

2008-09-01T21:49:00.023+08:00

THANK YOU EVERYONE!

let those photos do the talking..dun expect to see my mummy n daddy cos they didnt attend my convocation..thou its kinda disappointing but i cant help it..bcos of tt 2pid sch..i dun hav a choice..finally im officially OUT OF THAT SCHOOL!

Singapore Conference Hall (7 Shenton Way)

Ticket collection counter

Queuing up to enter the damn hall..my number is 102..

Visual Communication-GREEN Harry Porter!

yipsin & caifen

caifen & melissa

melissa, joshua & caifen

yipsin, caifen & kaiwei

roy & caifen

sunflower for yipsin

blue roses from yipsinblue roses from roy

爱一直闪亮

2008-08-12T15:58:00.002+08:00

我一个人的沙发上
还有你拥抱的力量
起身才看见孤单的形状
在空气里曝光
明明是咖啡不加糖
怎么喝还是懒洋洋
你不在的天气装了开关
碰到天亮就黑暗
我以为爱一直闪亮
现在剩一个人坚强
想念在手中张开变翅膀
我还懂不懂飞翔
我看见爱一直在闪亮
想逃的心改变了方向
只因这城市情歌太悲伤
才让一碗热汤红了眼眶

电视里爱情播不完
怎么转才能离开现场
如果我承认你让我很难忘
结局能不能换
忘记了我懂飞翔

...

2008-07-31T12:01:00.002+08:00

Emptiness in the heart..
speechless..
i have chosen this path..
therefore, i have to bear with the consequences..
walk away alone..

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底
你能不能收到它
天有点冷风有点大
城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家

问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜里回声变得好大
有没有什么好方法
让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗

你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候
比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了明天还长
回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下
问自己习惯了吗...

neglected blog..

2008-07-29T10:19:00.004+08:00

sorry for not updating for soooooo long..life hav been reali tough on mi these days..at work n mani others..decisions made..face the reality n walk away..i hope everiting will b fine..(0=

up nex i will b on leave for 2 days..
7aug08 - volleyball session
yeah yeah~its time to see my lao qian,ah shell,ah mei n 49^irene..time to step back into the vball court n fight 2gether..("jian fei" in another word) LOL!

14aug08 - collections of graduation gown
parents wun b attending due to the damn restrictions over at the 2pid hall..max. of 2 guests onli..children below 7yrs old r not allowed to enter the hall n no cameras allowed..n mani more..wth..to be nice,i gib my tickets to yipyip so tt her family n bf can attend her convocation..

time management for life,wrk n frens ain't an easy job..esp when i gotta bring wrk hm to do on Sat n Sun..plus,supervisor sms-ing u asking u to tink of concepts n ideas over the wkends on Sun morning..isn't tt the onli wkends when i wil b free fr wrk?y m i wrking at hm then?tts crazy..life life life~i doubt i did a good job..if nt,i wun b losing so mani tings in life ya..im jus soooooo tired..i reali hope i can hibernate at hm for 2mths..

but NO..i gotta hang in there..for my parents n myself..n my future..arghhhhh..
BIG HEADACHES on wat clothes i shld get for my convocation..formal formal formal..shirt,skirt,pants or dress?! LOL..most probably wil b shirt n pants..but where to find..
UNLEASH THE SHOPPING QUEEN IN ME!!!

mixed feelings

2008-06-29T19:58:00.002+08:00

Don't work too hard, nobody notices anyway!

The worst is not over yet, so hold on tight!

leave me alone..i'm in a total mess..
caifen is LOST IN THE JUNGLE!

where's the light to lead me out of this crap?!

i dread going to work everyday!

OT-ing everyday

2008-06-29T18:53:00.010+08:00

hmm..been OT-ing everyday till 11pm+ 12pm+ at night..really tiring..n i even gotta wrk on Sat..from 11am-7pm..kill mi mann..n the damn client been dropping by our office every single day..sit bside mi n see mi do..wth..can u feel the stress?!omggg..leave mi alone pls..
PAY PAY PAY! im waiting for my pay..X=
1. give parents -300
2. pay for browhaus package -190
3. pay handphone bill -100
4. haircut, colour n treatment -400
5. bday prezzie for frens-???
there goes my money..need to do some plannings now..HELP~

my working desk..)=

random!

2008-06-14T13:36:00.008+08:00

dread going to work everyday..i wanna play and relax!HAHA~

SOLELY JUST FOR YOU!

2008-05-31T23:28:00.008+08:00

solely just for you my dear..TOH YUTING...
a post full of your pics...(=
finally met up with tis ger here..after so so so long..
thanks for the belated until canot birthday gift..d=
i love it..its so beautiful!!!
can't wait to gib u "YOUR BIRTHDAY GIFT"
meet me again to collect it asap!
love ya~

goodbye~

wedding

2008-05-24T23:52:00.022+08:00

ta-dah! my papa car..(xin niang che)

my papa nice car become so ugly with the ugly pinky flower deco (im serious! its reali ugli..)

wayne wayne come n disturb when im taking pics of my papa car..

monster wayne wayne

wayne n ah ma

cheeky wayne

charmaine-pretty n sweet girl

when they meet..

shy shy ah...

getting closer...

yes..wayne stil trying to act shy..

see la see la..i say is act 1...now kiss the girl girl liao..X=

preparing for the dinner
last pic before i go...

finally back hm..after the dinner at the lao kok kok restaurant..X= hmm..erm...errr...no comments on the food..shake head~ SHhhhhhhhhhhhh...good night everyone!(=

working life is super duper terrible, stressful n tiring..everiday OT..go hm K.O go hm K.O..how long more can i endure...arghhhhh..~

goodbye..

family outing-BBQ

2008-05-24T16:02:00.016+08:00

straight after i touched dwn singapore after my phuket trip..went over to pasir ris park to join in the FUN! picnic n bbq session-family outing...=)

volleyball session with my bro,cousins n uncles...(=

wayne n zhi xuan

oPps~! censored* wayne wayne pee on the mat while changing clothes..

shame shame~covered!haha..X=

jasmine n max

caifen n max

max lim zhi yu is so so so happy! yeahhh~(=

phuket trip

2008-05-19T22:20:00.067+08:00

arriving at Singapore Changi Airport (Budget Terminal)

when i gets bored waiting...playing with my DS Lite... dun disturb leh...but still posing...lolx!cam-whoring when i'm soooooo bored!boarding gate
tiger tiGer TIGER!
i love the beautiful sky!arriving at Karon Princess Hote i am tired oreadi...walking to my roomsceneries..swimming poolthe beautiful beach...loves~cute little red man...food fOod FOOD!!!i want food!garlic chicken with bearbear ricefried rice

forever posing with food..the card u need to buy ur food...jus like kopitiam card in S'pore!
breaded chicken ricewoah!empty kopitiam at lunch hr...if only S'pore kopitiam can be lidat too...

super duper sweet ice lemon tea...less than SGD1...(tis pic is when i leave the kopitiam=nv drink)fast food at phuket..(mac & kfc)super nice thai food..yummy~lime soda

mango juicetom yam soup everiday~heart shape ricegrilled squidfried beef with chillifresh fruits on the housecocktail on the house too..tuk-tuk

me mE ME!!! cam-whoring everi single day till my cam batt goes flat b4 i come back to S'pore!HAHA!

leaving phuket..goodbye phuket...and hello to singapore...i'm back!

e2max(10th may)

2008-05-19T22:04:00.016+08:00

belated birthday cake for merry (4th may)& caifen (21st apr)

belated birthday girls

sing-a-song for us
caifen.merry.serena(meiqian)

cutting of "wedding cake"

the girls-apple(huiping).merry(shuling).jeslyn(jeysing).jieying.raine(xinyi)

raine.caifen.merry
apple.serena.jeslyn.jieying

apple&jeslyn - smile smile

nex moment... ... ...
busy figuring out tt dumb dumb board game...

start playing...n kip complaining...~!@#$%^&*

the end...home sweet home...

Grad Show 2008

2008-05-19T21:33:00.023+08:00

booth 50-Ng Chai Feng-Publication Designmy book and the supporting items

caifen&yipsin

jack.caifen.yipsin.kaiwei

gareth.jack.caifen.yipsin.kaiwei

caifen.yipsin.kaiwei

caifen&melissa

caifen&jackkaiwei&caifen

caifen&clement

dean.caifen.zhenhong.benny

caifen.yipsin.kaiweicaifen&yipsinkaiwei&caifen

caifen&joshua

caifen&nick

alvin.nick.caifen

caifen&yushan

merry&caifen

lawrence.yushan.nicholas.caifen

THINK THINGS-NAFA GRADUATION SHOW 2008

2008-05-07T01:06:00.003+08:00

THINK THINGS-NAFA GRADUATION SHOW 2008

GALLERY2-BOOTH 50-NG CHAI FENG
PUBLICATION DESIGN
THEME: TEENS PREGNANCY

8TH MAY 2008 (THURSDAY) 6PM-OPENING
9TH-11TH MAY2008 (FRIDAY-SUNDAY) 10AM-8PM

FEEL FREE TO DROP BY...
and...

SUPPORT ME! (=

NAFA Graduation Show

2008-04-26T01:29:00.002+08:00

NAFA Graduation Show 2008

8 May 2008 (Thurs) Official Opening
9 May 2008-11 May 2008 (Fri-Sun) Exhibition

Gallery 1 - graphic with illustrations / publication with illustrations
Gallery 2 - advertising / packaging / publication (i am here!)
Seminar Room - graphic design
Gallery3 - multimedia

Feel Free To Come..Any Day...Anytime...
Please Come And Support Me Please! (=

Birthday

2008-04-21T03:32:00.013+08:00

THANKS FOR ALL THE BIRTHDAY GREETINGS!

secondary school life
huishan
zhenhong
xingzhao
zhenxiang
dean
benny
nelson
merry
szerong
ernest
weesiang
lionel
vincent
jasper
xingjuan
irene^49
silin^wife
sharon tan
kianleong
yuting
vanda
james
jocelyn
tayhuixian
pamela
daniel lee
joel ng
jeysing
erwin soo
binglong
jason teo

cousins/family
cherie chua
meiying
jasmine
joey
minfen

nafa life
joshua
nick
sharon choo
yipsin
melissa
weiling
daniel yap
yvonne
jason
jack
angela
lina

MONEY!

2008-04-20T05:38:00.006+08:00

did a 3D stickers nailart on my own fingers..weetweet~
but then..abit toooooo flowery liao..HAHAHA!
stil rushing my fyp..my damn publication..jus the binding alone cost me 80 bucks..test print n final print of my book contents cost mi 68 bucks..and paper cost me 8 bucks..

guess what..there are more to come~

supporting items!!
- presentation board (A1 size 10 bucks each)
- 3 ads (A2 size 5 bucks each)
- 3 ambience ads
- 3 zo cards
- a number of bookmarks
- a number of floor stickers

money money money...
flying away...in no time!

get back to work..im so !@#$%^&*~!@#$% TIRED!!!

i want to sleep..

2008-04-16T23:21:00.002+08:00

SLEEPLESS NIGHTS!!!
dark circles & eye bags are everywhere to be seen!!!
ARGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH~

i want to sleep.
please let me sleep.
please let me have a peaceful night. )"=

Birthday = Assessment Day

2008-04-13T01:20:00.004+08:00

MOODY!
EMO!
HAVING A HARD TIME COPING WITH STRESS!

DO WORK DO WORK DO WORK!

BIRTHDAY = ASSESSMENT DAY
(21APR2008-23APR2008)
THERE GOES MY BIRTHDAY!

I HATE YOU FYP!

random

2008-04-11T00:12:00.006+08:00

random!

goodbye!

sara's 1st birthday (BABY BOMB!)

2008-04-10T23:25:00.014+08:00

Wayne Ng Rui Heng
Xi Nu Ai Le [NO "Le" hahahaha..(= ]

Max Lim Zhi Yu

Sara Lim Qian Yi

THE BEAUTIFUL BIRTHDAY CAKE!

our birthday girl!

singing "Happy Birthdday" song...

caifen & jasmine (love disturbing her when taking pics..)

see how much she love me..

some decent pics...HAHA!

goodbye~

Graduation Studio Shoot!

2008-04-09T22:38:00.008+08:00

SOLO
one..

two..

three..

CLASS
one..
two..

three..

passed events!

2008-04-09T03:02:00.015+08:00

march event - apple's singing competition

The Ladies - caifen, jeslyn, merry, apple, raine, serena

The Group

Guys - xingzhao, zhenhong, melvin, apple's bf, cheeyong, serena's bf

Ladies - jeslyn, raine, merry, serena, caifen, apple

APPLE, WE LOVE YOU!

february event - serena's birthday celebration

The Ladies - merry, caifen, apple, serena, jieying, jeslyn, raine

GAME TIME! crack your brainy...

caifen&serena

caifen&apple

sick

2008-03-25T03:40:00.002+08:00

i'm sick!
SICK SICK SICK
i lost my voice..="(

will update soon..

sorry guys for not meeting up..aniting sms mi ya..call mi aso no use..i got no voice to speak to you!

="(

DAMN!

2008-03-11T17:23:00.004+08:00

fyp photo-shoot session in sch 2day..damn boring..last yr the grad students take fotos bcox they gotta put it into their catalogue..but tis yr,there's no catalogue..y r we taking pics then? "they say to put into the cd" DAMN IT~! who wil bother to browse thru the whole cd..whole yr3 fyp wrks n pics..so crazy!!!

dumb dUmB DUMB!!!!!!

BYEBYE~!

updates~

2008-03-10T20:08:00.026+08:00

JASON 21st BIRTHDAY!

i am going to the zoo zOo ZOO!

goodbye~

finally!

2008-02-27T01:26:00.004+08:00

ASSESSMENT IS OVER!

but then again..
im having FCP make-up class on wed..
presentation on thur..
video shoot on thur nite..(i need a model!)
FCP class on fri..

and...

hand in FCP prj on nex nex fri..

damn!
no time to play..
I WANT TO PLAY..
i insist!!!

huishan is back in aussie..=(
meiying is back in aussie..=(
hope u ppl r fine n mus study hard there ya..xue chen gui lai~(=

i need YOU!

如果你也听说

2008-02-16T23:52:00.004+08:00

如果你也听说
突然发现站了好久
不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我
再多人陪只会更寂寞

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可
委屈却没有人诉说

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和舍不得
又无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我想我宁可都沉默
其实反而显得做作

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和舍不得
又无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

如果你想起我
你会想到什么

CNY Day1 Day2 Day3

2008-02-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

"lao yu shen" on cny day 1,2,3,&4...eat n eat n eat...

eat eat eat..little wayne wayne is always looking for eat eat eat...

CNY DAY1
photographer - jasmine chua jie min

caifen&meiying

caifen&jasmine

three-some...(=

CNY DAY2
mother,daughters,daughter in-law & grand-children...

look at our fishball eyes!!!

time for bed!

CNY DAY3
Dinner at Kim Gary Hong Kong Restaurant...
Chilled out at Holland V Essential Brew...

Dean Eng

Cai Zhen Hong

Tan Xing Zhao

Chan Zhen Xiang - NS man

Benny Tan

act innocent...

cut and eat...if you dare!

xingzhao&xinyi

caifen&xinyi

little wayne wayne

toy train track?! hat?!
like kor kor like di di...

manicure and nail art services...[nails@work]

2008-02-10T01:34:00.000+08:00

nails@work

kindly support me(caifen) and my sis in-law(joey)! currently setting up a small business doin manicure n nail art for ppl out there like U.."THE PERFECT NAILS FOR THE PERFECT YOU!"
nailsatwork@blogspot.com (more nails design will be UP soon..stay tuned!)

some nail designs tt we've done for our customers..as well as our own nails..

customer's nails done by caifen

customer's nails done by joey

customer's nails done by caifen

caifen nails for chu san.....

caifen nails for chu er...

caifen nails for chu yi..

and many many many m0re... ... ...

eski bar-cousins

2008-02-04T01:25:00.001+08:00

romentic candle light..

whitey white..

our drinks!!!

caifen.jasmine.meiying.cherie

my bestie-caifen&jasmine

forever posing..

she hates me..HAHA~
meiying&cherie-always giving us the SLEEPLY EYES!
twist twist!

missy cherie

missy meiying

missy caifen

missy jasmine

look at the icy lighting..COOL~
they love me..MUACKS!

cheeze~

cousins

cheers..n goodbye~!

scared?!

2008-01-31T00:37:00.000+08:00

lecturer mention something in class tt i kinda agree after awhile..

he said..we,students always complain tt we dun have time,no ideas,lost or stuck at work..
but its all excuses..

reason very simple..

its simply bcoz WE ARE SCARE!

scare to made mistakes..
scare to redo our work..
scare to experiment..
scare to explore etc..

therefore, we restrict ourselves from exploring more experimenting more..
then..
we say WE ARE STUCK! WE ARE LOST!

SPOON-FEED KIDS
we r always waiting to see our lecturers nod their heads..
then..we feel safe..n tinking tt we r finali on the right track..n my lecturers agree wif mi..
we doesnt have a mind of our own..
always always always waiting for lecturers to say "yes" to our wrk..
b4 we go all out to explore n seek for more ideas..

we r trained tis way, aren't we?
from yr1 all the way to yr3 sem1..
all our wrk have to go thru lecturers approval..
if we dun, during assessment we will definiteli flunk wif flying colours..

now..yr3 sem2..
all the opinions n comments u get fr your lecturers r all the same..
"you r the designer,tell mi wat u wan to do, n not i tell u wat to do."
OR
"you decide for urself bcos its ur FYP, not mine."
OR
"i duno, wat u tink? does it help?"
and many more... ... ... ... ...

i understand tt they r trying to train us to b independent n blablabla...
i jus nid time to cope wif it...
KINDLY spare mi some time pls~!

tired

2008-01-23T23:34:00.001+08:00

i am so so so so so
TIRED!!!

sick girl

2008-01-15T10:36:00.002+08:00

i'M SICK
sorry everione for not replying to smses or msn..

giddy spell n fever..due to? i duno..
overwork?not enouf rest?need to study n wrk better slp earli..blablabla..
sis n mum jus bomb mi wif all tis nonsense..

guess wat happened on my way hm ytd..i was so weak n giddy..
but there not seats for mi..so i gotta stand a side..
so tt there's sumjting for mi to lean on in case i faint n fall..

tis is the 1st time i felt tt the train journey hm was soo soooo soooo long..
its like taking hrs..den blacked out..im stil conscious..
i force myself to open my eyes..=X phew~ im fine..
but feeling reali cold n shivering..at the same time..perspiring..lol..
so weird..-.-'''

home..safe n sound..took medicine n went to bed..
i guess im better oreadi..
hopefully..

ohh ya..1st day of sch was pretty fine..meet up wif sharon in the morning n headed to sch together..ended class earli so i call her n see if she's done..she says awhile more..so i wait lo hor..haha..den we went tcc to chilled..lol..shop alittle at bugis b4 she meet her fren..parted at ard 1pm plus n i go all the way to toapayoh to wrk..everiting was fine until tt damn "giddy spell" stuck mi..took medicine but it didnt get ani better..sadded..ended wrk at 8.30pm so..i went home..

NO LIFE!

last week of internship!

2008-01-11T00:54:00.000+08:00

HEY there..
last wk of internship was terrible..
fr mon OT till fri..
not normal OT ok..
i reach hm everiday at 1am..(if i take cab hm..)
so agar agar everiday wrk till 12am plus..fr 9.3oam til 12am plus..
im dying..seriousli..ppl start sch looking fresh n energetic..
but ME?
looking super shag n tired i suppose..
(not to mention abt dark circles,eye bags n pimples ok!!!)
bless mi ppl..

emo kills..

2008-01-06T20:53:00.000+08:00

last wk of internship..
im vy sure its gonna b a reali tough wk..for ME!
more prjs cuming in..
but 2 other interns left,yipsin n yiling..so im all alone..
lonely..i am so lonely..

im dwn wif a big prj now..
no idea..duno how to start..

pls pretty pls..
let mi gooooooo~
i dun wanna b like tis..i jus wanna GOOOOOooooo~

("= sad smile?!

2008-01-02T01:22:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!
i know the truth..
disappointment filled mi UP!

tired & sad

2007-12-31T21:54:00.000+08:00

SAD SaD sAd New Year...
home alone...

merry christmas..lonely christmas..

2007-12-25T21:09:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE~!

neoprints with cousins..on 22 dec 07..after so longgg.....

wondering..

2007-12-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

someone say to ME..
seriously till now i still dunno which group of frens u belong to..
irene's crew?
meiqian's crew?

i answered..
seriousli i aso hav no idea where i stand n..
do i belong to ani groups of frens..?

someone ask..
who is ur bestie?!

i answered..
huishan..the onli 1 left..for mi..best sista..
n of cos my 49^irene..

who else..
no one else..

hang out wif n tok to normalli?
xingzhao zhenhong zhenxiang dean eric benny..(huayi)
sharon yipsin lynette yvonne jason jack..nick..alvin..(nafa)

ARGHHHhhhh~

after u grad,its a totali diff story i suppose..
all frens went into diff chapters of their life..
so u cant help it..but lose them..
but im sure..true frens will stay..by ur side..ALWAYS!
we will know, won't we?

im leaving in my own world..all by myself..feeling helpless n lost all the time..
feel like giving up yet im stil holding on..life isn't as simple as i thought..
why must it be so COMPLICATED?!
lonesome..boredom..is killing me..

i jus wanna shop all my troubles n worries away..
shop sHOp SHOP!!!!!

...

2007-12-20T22:06:00.000+08:00

i am TIRED!

TWEETY!

2007-12-17T23:49:00.001+08:00

that's ME!

group photos..shiver~~~

49^irene & 38^caifen

ah chai & ah shell

ah chai & ah mei

drinks at the eski bar that got us HIGH!!!

customized tweety bottle..look carefully ok..it's my name on it!!!
CAIFEN!!!!!

intern works..

2007-12-16T03:48:00.000+08:00

currently just completed few prjs..

1) annual report (for XXX company)

2) e-card (season greetings for YYY handbag)

3) flash (season greetings for YYY handbag)

4) website design (ZZZ company)

will upload some wrks tt ive done for u ppl to take a look..not all lah..some..those 2D flat wrk bah..annual report a book how to show ya?!flash aso mafan..haha..X=

there you go..let my artwrk do the toking alright ppl..enjoy~

e-card and flash wrk for YYY handbag...

website design for ZZZ company...

goodbye ppl..i need to get my wrk done b4 i can enjoy myself tml..meeting up wif huishan,irene,meiyu,michelle n xiao qian..THE VOLLEYBALL OLD GIRLS!!! lolx..we love gossiping sessions..nv ending gossips..all day long...love them all!!! (=

tired!

2007-12-15T13:52:00.000+08:00

internship is HELL!!!
everiday wrk till 8pm 9pm is not consider as OT u noe?!
wed supervisor say thur n fri OT hor..pls cancel all ur dates etc..
(in my mind, i @#$%^&*@#$%^&*) bcos we've been OT-ing everiday wat..lolx..
den thurs..i realised wats the meaning of their OT..wrk till ard 12.30am i tink..
meet fren for la kopi session cum lunch cum dinner cum supper..LOL..tiring but fun day..

strawberry scent too perfect to be natural..seeya next year..

DAMN TIRED..

im dwn wif office wrk once again..there goes my wkends..meet ups meet ups meet ups..my wkends r all booked..for frens!!!

internship life..

2007-12-08T22:42:00.000+08:00

back from KL..

there i go..for my attachment...TOA PAYOH!
totally screwed uP..n got screwed everiday..

complain to my mum n sis everi nite...n i stil complaining...
hais..really suck..everiday 930am stil wrk too 9pm+ or even 10pm+..
even meeting up wif frens aso got prob..jus bcos i gotta brin wrk back hm to do tooo...
stayin til so late in the office is stil not enouf..stil mus brin wrk back hm..

is tis really the life i wan?i wonder..life as a designer is tough..n keeps mi pondering for a long while...think think think~

seriously,im so sorry my dear frens..we'll meet up soon i promise!

im tired everiday..morning wrk..night come hm slp..i dun even hav spare time to check mails to go msn or even reply sms..all i wan is to slp n get some rest b4 the sun rise again the nex morning..arghhhhh..

LET ME SLEEP!!!

yummy day~

2007-11-24T22:27:00.000+08:00

make-ups on..compare with the previous post..
lalalallalaa..lolz...equally UGLY! hahahhaa..d=

grandma bday celebration 2day..had a yummy dinner 2day of cos..somewhere at bukit timah..lol..not to 4get my lunch..it was yummy too..went to my fav eating place..thai express..weetweet~yummy..i love the food to bits..super LOVE~hot spicy sour sweet blablabla..everiting u can get there..woohoooo..(=

holidayS..BUSY!

2007-11-24T00:17:00.000+08:00

without make-ups..ani diff?lol..
to me, its equally UGLY! X=
here are some images to share..hehe..nice..
"Frankly, my dear. I don't give a damn."

"i love you"

"smileys & saddy"

some chocolates bought back fr aussie by my bro..

[white chocolate, peanuts & fluffy marshamallows] weetweet~loves~

my sis has the milk chocolate 1..i prefer white chocolate..loves~

another bottle of chocolates..JIM BEAM Fudge..

nice triangular bottle..my sis got the green bottle 1..

white white WHITE..loves to bits~

internship starting real soon..but they ask mi to go dwn for a day within nex wk b4 i go for my kL trip..hmmm..plan plan plan..probabli within mon-wed bah..stil thinking n planning..arghhh~many events waiting for mi..tml is grandma bday..so wil b celebrating as well as eating out..sun my dearest huishan will b back in singapore..weet weet~i've been waiting for tis day..till my neck aso grow long liao ah..finalli~gonna grab her fav almond porky to the airport to fetch her n bringing her to some yummy food..all planned..n of cos..to fulfil her cravings etc..i wil brin her everiwhere aniwhere..hahaha...as promised! BUSY..even after assessment..hahaha..but i love it..cos tis is the onli time i can meet up wif all my LAO PENG YOU..vball mates..sec sch frens..blablabla..nt to forget..nafa frens too..to chilled to la kopi..hehehhe..loves~

DOWN!

2007-11-20T02:57:00.000+08:00

ALL DOWN!
finally im free from assessment..

finally finally finally...X=

TIRED!

2007-11-16T05:43:00.000+08:00

Advertising Design=DOWN
Graphic Design - FYP Publication Design=UP&DOWN=50%
Design Drawing=DOWN
Research & Communication Studies-DOWN
Complementary Studies=UP=100%
Photography=DOWN
Digital Media - Dreamweaver=UP&DOWN=80%

COME ON..
3 MORE TO GO..
I BELIEVE I CAN DO IT..HOPEFULLY~
GO GO GO~!
(FOR THE SAKE OF MY KL & BINTAN TRIP!!!)

die!

2007-11-14T02:00:00.000+08:00

WORK WORK WORK!
i'm dying due to all the workloads..
)"=

wedding dinner

2007-11-13T00:13:00.000+08:00

caifen.hengbing.jasmine.meiying
jasmine.meiying.caifen

jasmine&caifen

caifen&meiying

caifen&ryan
went for a relative wedding dinner.."they know mi,i duno them.."but luckily i gt company..my cam-whoring kakis..jasmine n meiying..hahaha..shoot shoot shoot..until meiying's mum say "ni meng xiao bu hui lei,wo kan le hen lei.."hahahahhaa..den we stopped..hahaha..X= whoooo..but then again..im hm n dwn wif all my wrks again..hais..

photography lesson..moody spell~

2007-11-12T03:55:00.000+08:00

tons n tons of pics taken on tt day but i dun hav the time to upload all..jus randomli pick up afew here ya..kinda bz wif all my wrk everiday..all 7 subj gonna due soon..3subjs on 14nov..4subjs on 19nov..chiong chiong chiong..im gonna chiong all n get out of nafa asap..tt HELL sch..wif a retarded system n more blablabla..a sch totali full of craps..arghhh~!

having mood swing more often than usual..i wonder y..mayb tis mayb tt..i duno..i wake up everi morning waiting for the nite..stay awake everi nite waiting for the nex morning..tis is life..so sucky n boring..i need a break..i wanna leave tis place..leave all my troubles n worries behind..arghhhh..SUCKS~

18days more for my KL trip..wrking hard "at the last min" for my assessment so tt i can go away for alittle while..family bintan trip is ON again..yeah-ness~probably on dec bah..woohooo~i need all tis definiteli..yearning for a family outing for a long time..together wif all uncles n auties..cousins n babies n many more..hahahhaaa..

family members r the onli 1 who reali understand n care for ME..they r the onli reason tt make ME smile..

WHERE ARE YOU NOW

Calling out your name Your face is everywhere I'm reaching out to you To find that you're not there I wake up every night To see the state I'm in It's like an endless fight I never seem to win I can't go on as long as I believe Can't let go when I keep wondering Where are you now, what have you found Where is your heart, when I'm not around Where are you now, you gotta let me know Oh baby, so I can let you go I can hear your voice The ring of yesterday It seems so close to me But yet so far away I should let it out To save what's left of me And close the doors of doubt Revive my dignity Bit, I can't go on as long as I believe Can't let go when I keep wondering I should let it out, it's time to let you go Oh baby, I just want to know

its time to let you go...

2007-11-08T01:20:00.000+08:00

i ain't feeling good..omggg..i'm so tired of my life..aniting,everiting..tis isn't good at all..falling deep down..n i see no lights leading mi thru tis tough period..let it go n move on..4get abt it..no point..

wake up

2007-11-06T03:46:00.001+08:00

slapped me hard on the face and wake mi UP!

caifen nG

2007-11-05T02:48:00.000+08:00

Girls are merely sluts, they just wanna have fun...

supper at makan sutra

2007-11-03T22:29:00.000+08:00

trying on dressey..

sugar cane for EVERYONE!

BBQ chicken wings..

a plate of chilli?

fried kway teow..

ice kacang..

stoning is sch fr 12pm-6pm..shopping n kill time+waiting fr 6pm-10.30pm..supper fr 10.30pm-12.15am..

supper at makan sutra wif zhenhong,xingzhao,zhenxiang,benny,eric,dean,sharon and ME!

fly car to send sharon back hm by 12.30am..i gt hm by 12.45am..

there goes my day..wasting all my time stonign away..

dressey day..

2007-11-02T00:02:00.000+08:00

sharon & caifen in dressey..

DAMN IT!

2007-10-30T02:07:00.000+08:00

DAMN IT!

my hp spoil..shit shit shit!
the keypad sunk in and.....
now i've gt trouble pressing, dialing,sms-ing blablabla..

how LUCKY i am mann!!!

wat shit is tis mannn..pissed!
my dear slim fone...

so FAST...

and u're giving mi prob...
omgg~

please be good..
gonna bring u for repair tml..
ohh dear...

PISSED OFF~

sentosa sports' day & kelly's bday bbq..

2007-10-27T22:49:00.001+08:00

sentosa sports' day and my sec sch teacher bday-kelly bday's bbq..pics taken..blablabla..let my pics do the toking den..im simply too lazy..hahahahaaa..tanning..toking..laughing ard..bbq-ing..eating..crapping...cut cake...snap snap snap..enjoy~!

Joker of the day - jack sia (with my shades)

Mr BIG bully & Miss POORthing (jason & yvonne)

Supermodels of the day (jack & sharon)

caifen & yipsin

sharon & caifen

caifen & joanna

caifen & yushan

caifen.yipsin.sharon.yvonne

yipsin.caifen.yvonne.sharon

caifen.sharon.yipsin.yvonne.jason.jack

joanna.caifen.yipsin.yvonne.kaiwei.yushan.sharon

zhenhong & xingzhao

(1st and the only time both of them got their hands dirty and did some work)

kelly

kelly & zachery

kelly & zhenxiang (zachery pose here pose there in all pics..cute little boy..)

kelly & xingzhao

kelly & zhenhong

kelly & dean

kelly & benny

kelly & szerong

kelly & caifen

samuel.zachery.kelly.dean.caifen.zhenhong.xingzhao.szerong.zhenxiang.benny

end of the day..tiring day of cos..after uploading all the pics fr sentosa to bbq..send here send there..den i got in coma at ard 1.30am..woke up at 1.30pm in the afternoon..den went back to slp fr 3pm till 6.30pm..wat a PIG!!! pardon mi cos for the past 2 days..i onli slpt 2hrs altogether..slpt at 6am den woke up at 7.45am to go sentosa..omggg...LET ME SLEEP..hahaha..

praying HARD~

2007-10-25T00:53:00.000+08:00

goin for an internship interview tml..(hopefully)
at toa payoh mann..industrial park..how sad it is..
not onli its far..aso gt alot uncles ah pek bangla china wrkers..PERVERTS~
really gotta protect myself..they will look at u as if they nv see gers b4 in their whole life mann..damn disgusting ppl..
but i hope by the end of the attachment, i learn lotsa stuffs fr the design industry..
portfolio done..resume done..X=
relax and calm..dun kan jiong..hahahaa..

GOOD LUCK & ALL THE BEST TO ME!

byebye~

boredom kills...

2007-10-21T23:05:00.000+08:00

im so bored..yet i got so mani wrk to do..am i growing fatter day by day..i tink so..look at my roun d round face..i tink i mus stop by daily routine of eat slp eat slp eat slp oreadi..hahahaha..but i dun reali eat alot when im in sch lo..onli when im at hm..i start eating n eating slping n slping..omggg..fyp..publication is killing mi lah..i totali gt no idea wat i shld do mann..dun wan boring tings like a book or magazine..wat else can i do..think think think!!! I MUST THINK!!!!!

HHELPPP~~~

caifen nGdreamweaver...(personal webpage)complementary studies...(self-promo)

BYEBYE~there i go..cracking my brain again..X=

shooting day..

2007-10-20T01:13:00.000+08:00

today for photography lesson..i finali started on my 1st product shoot..kinda fun..but it terribly frustrated ok..layout..compostion..HELL~ohh my god..i simply jus cant get tings right..n i go way lao here wah lao there..nag nag nag all the while..but i stil cant get it right..gonna try it during other lesson time oreadi..

laying out all my props before shooting starts..
there i go..trying to find out a nice composition for my products..

change here change there as u can see..

again and again..i jus cant help it.

Product Shoot!
1)O.P.I nail polishes (re-shooting yet to be done~)
2)DKNY Green Apple Perfume
3)Jelly Bean Candies

stay tuned.....for more shots...hahaha..=X

SETTLERS..a board game cafe..

2007-10-14T21:39:00.000+08:00

went settlers cafe for some board game session..scream and shout..whack n smack..literalli laugh our lungs out..lol..its fun..really..(= but its not those quiet quiet place..its kinda noisy n stuff..a place to play board games scream shout laugh all u wan..woohooo~

group photo

caifen

zhenxiang

eric

gwen

zhenhong

xingzhao

benny

szerong

dean

zhenxiang(behing)

eric (loser of the day)

caifen (before goin sch)

drawDRAWdraw

2007-10-12T00:20:00.000+08:00

yvonne&caifen
caifen
yvonne
drawn by jo..hehe..cool..nice?!
Thanks Jo~!

dressey loves~

2007-10-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

dressey1-colourfoool..hahaha..=)

dressey2-blackie&whitey..

little wayne wayne..loves~

sick sick sick..

2007-09-30T03:25:00.001+08:00

friday - fever/giddy..skip class after 5pm cos im vy sick n supposed to go hm earlier to attend cousin's weddingn at nite, but in the end i'm too sick tt i cant even wake up..(ate few mouthful of porridge n vomit all out...=X)

saturday - slight fever/giddy..lao sai-ing all the while..out of control..so gross..all the sai kip bursting out..omgg..thousands of times..till im so weak n gt no strength to move ard..lying on the sofa like a dead person..didnt tok didnt eat..(ate abit of porridge..there i go..lao sai-ing non stop..)

sunday - giddy..hopefully i will b fine when i wake up later..cos gotta go grandma hse..is my little cousin Max Lim Zhi Yu full mth celebration..

HAIS.....

the way i relax...

2007-09-27T22:07:00.000+08:00

HANDICRAFT!!!
i'm lovin' it! yeah yeah~

final product - piggy

SMILE!

oink oink oink~

tired...

2007-09-26T22:52:00.000+08:00

Sem1Term2Wk1 is ending soon..final prjs..design proposal..all cuming up..piling up like nobody's business..im so tired..

finally a decent pics wif jack..-.-'''

cam-whoring partners...yipsin&caifen(a day without make-ups)

2007-09-23T04:26:00.000+08:00

我知道你在想什么
不用说出口
你只是不知该
如何才令我不难过
我也想最好能装傻
永远一拖再拖
其实知道你
早已经对我没一丝不舍
笑着对你说
你走吧
我没什么
不用担心我
我一定会好好生活
沉默并不代表懦弱
放手更不代表解脱
对你好多话想说
好多事想做
却选择默默的
也想哭着说好难过
只是你要找下个快乐
我才逼自己
用微笑带过
努力跟你配合
我只能默默的

hide hide hide..

2007-09-23T03:24:00.000+08:00

hiding at hm..
shoo shoo perverts!
been having nightmares everi single nite after the incident..
i tink i reali gt damn freaked out..
im goin mad..
didnt dare to step out of my hse..didnt dare walk to mrt station..
oh my goodness..
stop it mannn..i cant stand it animore..
thanks to all those who accompany mi here n there..
fetch mi everiwhere..blablabla..
cos im totally damn freaked out..seriousli..
tryin to adjust everiting back to normal again..
n i need some time.....
HAIS~~~

fugging PERVERT!!!

2007-09-20T22:16:00.000+08:00

morning 9am left hm for sch to submit my prjs..while walking to lakeside..sumting happened.....saw a weird guy hiding at blk 520 railing..(so dumb..as if ppl canot c him..) den he almost wanna follow an old auntie into the lift..den i tink he saw mi n went back hide behind the railing..damn stupid..n i saw him lo..(he tink i cock eye or sumting ah..) sense tt sumting is not right so i kip a lookout..n...he followed mi all the way to lakeside b4 the overhead bridge..feel tt sum1 is vy near mi at my back so i turn ard wif a fierce look i suppose..n the pervert kinda like "jump up"..lol..i tink i gave him a shock or sumting..at the same time i damn freak out but act like nth..den when i turn back again he disappear..fugging freak out lo..y i call him a pervert?! hmmm..his age shld b ard the same as mi..mayb 20+..a young chinese guy..he wears a light blue polo tee,jeans n shoes..carrying a TS those vcd shop plastic bag den holding a tissue paper in the other hand n put it at his *aheM* part duno doin wat 2pid ting..fcuking disgusting..i wun b so freak out if he follow mi till train station n i can get the control station ppl there to brin him to the police..but he didnt..he disappear..jialat..i wonder if he will b ard my blk area..looking for his nex target or waiting for mi to appear..FCUK..but too bad..im gonna stay at hm n not go out..probably gonna make a police report asap..bcos mi n my sis hav met tis kinda pervert for duno how mani...........times.......can u imagine tt..tis area is so unsafe n "dirty"..dun understand y mann..they feel excited when gers scream?they r seeking for attention?wtf..TOTALLY FREAKED OUT!!! i'm not gonna step out of my hse..unless gt ppl fetch mi fr hm or accompany mann..not gonna go out alone tis days...home sweet home.....=X

BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY

2007-09-20T02:50:00.000+08:00

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself instead of calamity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself instead of calamity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
I's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

La Da Da Da Da Da

CRY

2007-09-20T02:40:00.000+08:00

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truely
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you, i'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this conditionA
nd i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...

~!@#$%^&*()...

2007-09-20T01:37:00.001+08:00

life is terrible..n i mean it..TERRIBLE!!!assessments ended wifout ani term break..im so tired..totali breaking apart..assessments ending on fri..= term break left wif sat n sun..guess wat..on mon when sch start again TERM2..gt 3 prjs due..wat kinda life is tis..no break nvm but left wif 2 days to complete the 3 prjs..u mus b joking..3 prjs include..
1st-->3d mock up of mascot(sewing),gift n packaging..
2nd-->UN agenda 21 report..
3rd-->research n readings on CSS..HELL~
arggghhhhHHHHHH!!!so so so so so fuggin TIRED!!!
~!@#$%^&*()~!@#$%^&*()...

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2007-09-16T15:16:00.000+08:00

i'm waiting wAiTiNg WAITING!!!
for this..for that..for you..for her..for him..
everything..anything..everywhere..anywhere..
in spreeing mood..tops..dresses..ALL!
buy bUy BUY!!!

byebye people..
i'm moodless..-.-'''

before n after..

2007-09-12T17:29:00.000+08:00

went out o get some interior design magazine for my dpm..gone bonkers choosing those bks..there r quite a no. of magazines there at mph..but i saw afew design bks on colours n publications..my dream reference bk..but too bad..its kinda costly..but i din get it..now i've gt 4 interior bks at hm..SPACE, HOMESTYLE, SQUAREROOMS, ISH..omgg..can tell u i dun reali touch those bks unless i nid to do wrk..LOL! bks bks bks..wrking on an empty rm for dpm(digital photo media) = photoshop..

empty room (my prj is to come out wif an empty using fotoshop n put in furnitures 1 by 1 n make it look real..omgg..tis is HELL i tell u..)

wrking in progress..not completed yet..comments pls..i duno wat else to add oreadi..=.='''

caifen-nth better to do..sooooo.....cam-whoring at hm n did some graphic wrk..before and after..=X
xingzhao went malaysia..zzz...zhenhong goin hongkong..zzz...y am i not goin aniwhere after my terrible assessment?! tell mi tell mi..ming ku ah~~~! ="( BYEBYE~

sad life

2007-09-11T21:27:00.000+08:00

moody moody moody..
been really moody recently..moodless for aniting,everithing..so sad..so dull..so lifeless..so helpless..cry out loud..i dun feel a ting..things come n go..good things come to an end..smses..msn..toking on fone..is a way to communcicate..but,recentli i jus gib tt kinda moodless reply n sian sian voice to everi1..sorry ppl! im jus so not in the mood for aniting,everiting..on the other hand,assessments r killing mi..submission is dreadful..im breaking apart..lotsa to do yet im dreaming..DPM,DD,R&C Studies..n wat more..GD submitted on mon but bad news arrived 2day..lecturer wanna c the whole class..all of us gotta redo the whole prj..wat the hell..den y he approve everitime we go consult him?!now wanna reject n make use redo reprint re-laminate..its alot of money lo..wah kao..wats goin on ppl..=X sad sad sad...="(

...

2007-09-09T12:36:00.000+08:00

ANNOUNCED DEAD!!!

assessment been torturing mi since wk 1 till now..nw is wk7..n all my wrk all screwed up..everiting is in a mess..BIG MESS ok!!!so sad..by right,wk7 & 8 is assessment but we really gt lots to do so some gotta b done by wk9 (which is a term break lo..) nw wat..my vacation aso kena eat up by my assessment..tts so terrible..wk9 break = no break..after assessment straight away start sch again..arghhhhh~wat tis mann..my life???ohh no no..im so tired..so pain..but i dun hav a choice..counting dwn everiday fr 10mths left to 8mths left..hurry up lah..i jus wanna leave NAFA asap..hais..but its not tt easy..i stil hav to go thru another few rounds of assessment for sem1 term2 n sem2 blablabla..specialization..fyp..attachment..grad show..blablabla..convocation..stil a long more way to go..

BYE..i'm dead!

photos?!

2007-09-04T22:47:00.000+08:00

Ronald Mcdonalds..i'm lovin' it!
Otah signage..i tot it was really sumting diff n creative..its cool hor..but i realised its not a stall selling otahs..instead,its a stall selling nasi lemak.. heard tt its famous n nice..but to me,no one can beat my mama's nasi lemak ok..

finally..my nbeardy hair is gone..woohoo..im so happy..but so busy these days..hais..assessments is jus nex wk..omgg..gib mi a break!

specialization..HELP!

2007-08-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

1a) Graphic Design
1b) Graphic Design (with illustrations)
2) Packaging Design
3a) Publication Design
3b) Publication Design (with illustrations)
4) Advertising Design
5a) Chinese Advertising Design
5b) Chinese Graphic Design

HELP ME PEOPLE..choose wat?!omggg...i stare at tis damn piece of paper for so mani days..n i gotta submit nex wk..tis is the 1st time i get so stressed even when i jus need to filled in my choices as in jus put 1,2 or 3..jus put no. lei..n im so stressed..omgggg...who can help mi...=X caifen is dying..

baby baby baby..

2007-08-30T21:12:00.000+08:00

guess wat..my little baby cousin is born 2day..little mark junior..lol..my 2nd JIUJIU de baby..woohoooo..7.1 pound..ard 3.2kg..quite big ah..=) guai guai ah little baby..we r now thinking of a christian name for him..work hard ppl..find find find..pls dun gib him an ah beng name..=X

and...3rd sept is little wayne wayne bday..will b gathering at Chevrons tml nite for bbq and sat nite for buffet n cut cake..lol..wayne wayne is 1yr old..yeah-ness..he is so so so cute..=) SUPER CUTE RIGHT???????!!!!!!omggg..=)

tired!

2007-08-28T00:17:00.000+08:00

catch 2 movies last wk,eat alot n did some shopping to RELAX..881 and dead slience..new york new york,thai express.zhi cha n many more blablabla..bought a shorts,2 tees blablabla..as a results of being stress..i spent my $$..fainted..i tink tts vy bad..well..both movies not tt bad lah..881 is so damn packed can..even first row aso full..alot aunties n uncles watch tt..i guess lotsa aunties teared..cos when the movie end..aunties holding tissue paper n eyes red red sia..penG..quite touching n sad at some parts..but i didnt reali tear lei..not sad enouf..or im too tired to even concentrate..lol..ZH CRY!!! lol..no lah..eyes watery watery lah..nv cry lah hor?!hahaha..as for dead slience,abit no storyline lo..but the whole movie was ok..now..monday blues..cos gotta get back to my wrk again..omgg..can ani1 help mi replenish my slp..help mi..zx ask how can he help..i say "help mi slp lah.." im so desperate to SLEEP..arghhh..="(

ARGHHHH!!!

2007-08-22T01:48:00.000+08:00

busy bUsY BUSY!!!everiday..more wrks more prjs n more stuffs will b added on to my wrk load..its getting out of control..omgg..im so dead..n my hair simply sucks..wind blow~~~tts it..all messed up..cos its too thin n light now..="( wanna get back my black black hair now..trying trying to get rid all the coloured part asap..=X ARRGHHHH~been wrking on tis damn mountain for the passed few hrs..wah lao..its HELL mann..CRY OUT LOUD!!! ="( take a closer look mann..its my hardwrk..omgg..looks ugli lei..how ah?!hais..i hav no ideas..help mi ppl out there..=(von and caifenvon.caifen.yipsinsharon and caifencaifen and yipsinBYEBYE peeps..tts how short my hair is now..see it for urself mann..CRY~!

BUSY!

2007-08-19T02:27:00.000+08:00

went to get a haircut as well as a new fone new line on thurs..n i onli had a ebi rice burger for the whole damn day..seriousli no appetite to eat when im so bz wif my hmwrk..now u c..im having a nerdy hair..coloured part almost all gone..haha..great..its a good thing cos i dun wan it animore..when red turns brown..i look damn matured "OLD" n ah lian..gd thing tt my hair stylist cut it away..cool..but my frindge is abit too short now n i look like a nerd..a little ger..omgg..when i tied it up..it will b the standard hair fr sec sch student lo..tt is how "guai n nerd" it can go..i even say..i've nv been so guai b4 lo..sec sch i always kena caught jus bcoz of my long frindge..nw i hav the perfect hair for sec sch life..bring mi back then..i dun wan to b in nafa..paying fees to tortured myself..slpless day n nite now..not onli nite ok..omgg..its getting abit out of control..hopefulli nex wk wil b a better wk..cos the COOL tingy is cleared..finally..god bless US..

caifen
nerd hair?!

yipsin&caifen (after haircut)
look at my eyes..its due to slpless day n nite k..small n puffy~

caifen&yipsin (before haircut)
slpless day n nite too..we go crazy when we dun get enouf slp..snap snap!

BYEBYE..im busy!

zhenxiang & xingzhao 19th birthday..11082007

2007-08-15T16:21:00.000+08:00

PHOTO TIME!
on last Saturday 11 August 2007..

i dun hav the time to tok abt it..i believe my pics can tok more..lol..hav been reali bz these days..nt onli bz..i cant even slp ok..morning go sch..do wrk..nite reach hm..do wrk..till the nex morning..go sch again...do wrk again...nite go hm again...do wrk again..till...nex morning again..tts a daily routine for mi oreadi..I REALLY NEED TO SLEEP MAN..im gonna "peng san" soon! let mi sleep pls my dear hmwrks n prjs..PLEASE~let mi sleep can?! HAIS~ ="(

BYEBYE..="(

the day.....when my terrible eyes....HAIS...

2007-08-10T23:30:00.000+08:00

credits to jack sia..who took all tis ungalm pics of mi when i had my terrible eye..cleaning up the pus..n of cos..disturbing him as well..pics of him tt i took were nice lo..wah lao..wat he gib mi in return..all u can see lo..is SHIT..UGLY!!!
my frindge will cover my infected eye..lol..in order not to let u guys see the teary,red,yellowish pus eye..as it got worse on the 2nd day cos both eyes kenna..sad case..noe wat..ppl hav been tellin mi there's lotsa wrk..n its hell..i feel so guilty sitting at hm for 3days mann..HELP~!

thanks mann..its SO KIND of u..to send mi all these unglam pics..i jus cant thank u enouf n !$#$@%^&*#!@#$%^ u all the way mann..lol..THANKSSS~~~

BAD EYE DAY!

2007-08-09T00:04:00.000+08:00

wednesday-my eyes totali cant open when i wake up in the morning..therefore im unfit to attend sch..it definiteli gt worse cos it pass to my left eye 2day..so i gotta wear shades..cos my eyes pain to the core mann...HAIS~

shaddy caifen

tuesday-wake up in the morning n realised tt my right eye canot open..i've gt INFECTIONS!! omgg..but i cant afford to missed sch..so,i headed to sch..study study study..till my eyes reali gib way mann..take some pics b4 goin hm..wif my right eye covered wif my long frindge of cos..went national library wif sharon to borrow some bks on fotoshop n DD..den i headed hm quickli..get $$ n went to the doc..doc say im dwn wif vy serious eye infection n will pass on the my left eye too..mus imptly is..i gotta separate my utensils,food,towel,bedding etc etc fr everi1..n they cant enter my rm..n doc say im NOT SUPPOSE to go sch in a stern manner..n gib mi 3 days MC..for goodness sake..i cant afford to hav MC..n cant afford to rest ok..helpless..

sharon and caifen

caifen and yipsin

dear friends..to prevent u guys fr getting it..i wun go sch..sorry if i cause lotsa prob mann..b it in prjs wrk n discussion..i probably cant turn up..n im realy sorry abt tt..my eyes reali canot make it..popping out anitime..tearyy wif yellowish discharged at all times..HAIS..i jus gotta lock myself up in my damn rm..sorry guys..i promise i will rest well n get back to sch asap..="(